Friday, August 3, 2012

Window seal

The first time I saw you this year I turned around quickly and ran away..
then I remember the days after that I didn't stop thinking about you, so I was not over you, I knew
I didn't live okay looking like I was completely fine without you around
I couldn't stop thinking how much it hurt when I walked away that day
Vivid vivid damn memory, I was so sorry, but why did you have to come back, touched me in the heart
and walk away like that...you should've not said anything nice, anything that would make me linger onto you, so I hated you, because I saw through you.
I thought I was tough, thought I would make it clean, but you didn't let me, because you came back.
I hated you even more, I blocked you, deleted you, erased you, but I still thought about you everyday.
Those vivid vivid damn happy memories hurt me so bad, because I always drew myself back into reality.
Even until today I try not to think of any one of them, except until seeing you, yesterday.

I don't know if you saw me, but we sped pass you. A weird feeling struck me that I no longer cared, who you were with, what you were doing, or the toughest question of all, how have you been. I knew this day would come where after all I've tried so hard, to forget you, to let go of my anger, to look at you and not feel a thing. I've went through so much without you already that now I know all those once precious memories are like old stars lost in the universe that I'd no longer treasure, love, cry on. You're just a person I've known, a figure in my old stories, a person whom I'll gradually forget.
How have you been, how have you been, no longer matters to me. I wish you good luck, good life, good fortune, but now we're off, cut and clean and no turn backs.

Dearest of all lonely memories, good-bye.
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10 comments:

  1. AnonymousAugust 8, 2012 at 10:18 AM

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I85ApzR43jU

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  2. AnonymousAugust 9, 2012 at 11:52 AM

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wgsMe8jCSxU

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  3. jessicaAugust 18, 2012 at 6:56 AM

    I'd love to know who you are

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    1. UnforgettableSeptember 15, 2012 at 9:25 AM

      I dread to have you read this through,
      But boldly I put all my trust in you:

      --

      'When lonesome minds are snatched by fiery hearts
      Then where once reason stood will love ascend.
      And then from there the hell and heaven starts
      For love-struck fools round up like sheep and penned.

      But if these follies not be mutual love,
      The clowns who cling in spite of woeful fact
      Will pine and grieve as does the mourning dove.
      One can but hope that they emerge intact.'

      Yet I still love, despite advice so clear.
      For how can I resist your starlit smile,
      The sparkling, blissful air when you are near,
      The thrill – although it be for but awhile?

      For having found an angel in my life,
      Forever and a day I'll bear love's strife.

      --

      Who I am will be revealed when the time is best. Till then, to read my missives with open heart and mind is my only request.

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    2. jessicaOctober 8, 2012 at 5:07 AM

      time waits for no one

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    3. M. ?October 13, 2012 at 10:54 AM

      For every moment that I did delay,
      The chances of me being yours grew slim.
      So boldly I revealed my thoughts one day.
      But now I know you had your eyes on him.

      Friends ask just how I came to like you so:
      A playful individuality
      So warm it makes the heavens shine. A glow,
      Complex and vibrant - beyond mere beauty.

      You say that time will wait for no one - yes.
      But I'll still hope and wait for you though, Jess.

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    4. my badOctober 13, 2012 at 11:58 AM

      *went to bed only to realise a whole stanza was missing... returns to finish it LOL*

      For every moment that I did delay,
      The chances of me being yours grew slim.
      So boldly I revealed my thoughts one day.
      But now I know you had your eyes on him.

      Attempts to free my mind of you were vain.
      You are the first girl that I can't forget.
      You came and made so special what was plain;
      For that I am forever in your debt.

      Friends ask just how I came to like you so:
      A playful individuality
      So warm it makes the heavens shine. A glow,
      Complex and vibrant - beyond mere beauty.

      You say that time will wait for no one - yes.
      But I'll still hope and wait for you though, Jess.

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  4. maleextra ingredientsAugust 31, 2012 at 2:33 AM

    I've went through so much without you already that now I know all those once valuable reminiscences are like old celebrities missing in the galaxy that I'd no more cherish, really like, cry on. You're just a individual I've known, a determine in my old experiences, a individual whom I'll progressively ignore.

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  5. AnonymousAugust 31, 2012 at 5:08 PM

    ^ go away wrong place to advertise shit dude.

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  6. jessicaSeptember 4, 2012 at 2:58 AM


    Haha, but it's funny how they bothered to recreate it. I actually smiled..:')

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